Welp...interesting day. I was doin wat i was doin...bein myself. Then someone lit the fuse. So instead of blowing up in front of everyone during lunch... i ran outside infront of the school. Its amazing at how much a SINGLE person can think of when the silence rolls over them. The sad thing about me is that after thinking ONE thing 10 other things come up and im a walking talking emotional ball. Welp i got to 5th period...and when the class was over Sam said soemthing to me. It IMMEDIETLY caught my attention. The sad thing was....that wat he said was true...but it was something i didnt want to beleive at THAT moment. I got to 6th period finally sayin to myself that ive had ENOUGH of thinking 4 the SCHOOL day. So i did wat others have told me be 4 about my problems...run from them..or distract urself. And i did so...i went to sleep 4 practically the WHOLE period. I went to my locker...and RIGHT when i was feeling better about my "problems"...the SAME person lites my fuse. THAT TIME...i exploded..not totally...juss scream a lil. After seeing "THAT"....thats when i Sam's words TRULY sunk in. His words were so simple (heh more like WORD)...and i knew wat he said was true...but...i dunno...i guess it just took that "incident" to finally open my eyes. So i walked out the doors to my bus and screamed again...mayan i was goin crazy. I finally got home and screamed as loud as i could (nobody was home thankfully). So i punched things..cried.,..cried..and cried...wat HELL. I finanly couldnt take it anymore and called mark. Heh...im really glad that hes still here 4 me...after all these years...hes still got my back...thanx mayan. Well ive made a MAJOR decison 4 MYSELF 2day...the hard part is weather or not i can LIVE with the decison. I know life isnt easy....but does it really have to be so hard?
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Wow...new blog....shall be interesting.
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